I’ve written a lot in these past few weeks of this new experiment. When I launched this site I shared a few of my reasons why, but I have also been aware from the start that I really didn’t know where this project would go, and I still don’t. That’s what I like about it. Living without expectations is a good way to live.
But not knowing what’s ahead is far different than ignoring what’s behind, and I’m all about reflecting on my behind.
I really enjoy the time I spend writing and thinking and talking for this site. It’s the only place on the internet where I go without a goal in mind, and can just express what I want to express. It’s cathartic, challenging, sometimes anxiety-inducing, sometimes relaxing, and all the times fun.
I’ve shared a lot of things here that I would have probably never written down if it weren’t for this site. In the process of writing, I have also gained a better understanding of important ideas (like this). Other times, seeing the words I was writing revealed things to myself that I didn’t quite know (like this). And other times nothing has necessarily come from the thought of the day, other than the ritual of sitting behind my keyboard and creating — but that, in itself, is something. I have a podcast on iTunes now! (what?!) I got an article picked up by a big online publication! (I still have no idea how that happened, but it was a shocker) Oh, and I broke the T key on my keyboard, so that’s somehing!
It feels like I’ve grown a large amount of person-ness in a small amount of time.
And after this past weekend, where I was engaged in a 48-hour straight hyperactive game marathon charity fundraiser extravaganza, and still managed to think / day (and didn’t even once consider letting it slip), I think I’m in this for the long run.
Thanks to everyone who has shared their thoughts with me so far. I’m looking forward to seeing what this turns into, and I’ll be happy to have you along for the ride.
Now I’m going to sleep for a couple days,